Your too young for commitment, just have fun while you can
I don't do one night stands.
We can date after if you want.
Just a few quotes in the confusion of gay relations which have been said to me recently. (paraphrased)
I have no idea what i want.
Whenever i meet someone for the first time boy/girl i often have this enormous lust to be with them, a weird intensity, its like a potion has just exploded lingering around this person and i can't get enough of it. It doesn't mean i want to be with them have a relationship, get married have kids its just a feeling of closeness i don't know what direction it will take or which way to favour.
As I'm sort of against marriage believing it to be a way for demonising and restricting sexuality, castrating desires for financial reasons. This is not to say that marriage doesn't work for some people but i'd rather not have to tolerate someone just because i'm trapped in this entanglement or trapped in a relationship trying to make it work when we are completely ill suited.
Though this is not to say i wouldn't want a relationship. From past experience i quite enjoy being with someone, the comfort, the sharing, the routine, the sex etc. Learning about someone is in fact maybe one of my favourite past times.
Whenever i meet someone for the first time boy/girl i often have this enormous lust to be with them, a weird intensity, its like a potion has just exploded lingering around this person and i can't get enough of it. It doesn't mean i want to be with them have a relationship, get married have kids its just a feeling of closeness i don't know what direction it will take or which way to favour.
As I'm sort of against marriage believing it to be a way for demonising and restricting sexuality, castrating desires for financial reasons. This is not to say that marriage doesn't work for some people but i'd rather not have to tolerate someone just because i'm trapped in this entanglement or trapped in a relationship trying to make it work when we are completely ill suited.
Though this is not to say i wouldn't want a relationship. From past experience i quite enjoy being with someone, the comfort, the sharing, the routine, the sex etc. Learning about someone is in fact maybe one of my favourite past times.
I'm just a ball of confusion, that is going round a closed maze.
x
(atm I feel weirdly Asexual/Non-sexual 24/09/2010)
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